It’s so interesting to see just how much those past traumas changed them. Mostly they became so much harder, put up walls, made themselves more calloused. But at the same time it made them more vulnerable, made them hurt more at the small things, at the things that were once normal or that are normal for people like Gwen. They have these memories and their current employment and Gwen’s normality as a constant reminder that they are not normal, that they don’t fit in in a society that they sometimes so desperately want to be a part of. Instead, they have to stand on the edges, again and again saving a city and a society and a lifestyle that doesn’t want them and that they can’t cope with, watching from the outside as the life they wished for when they were younger passes by without them.